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God does work in mysterious ways. I was in school today and then I had to go to Ngee Ann Polytechic after school to go for their CCA feastia. It’s because that NYP don’t have it’s own CF(Christian Fellowship) yet, so NP and NYP’s CF are like together.

So I was in class when my lecturer told us that he’s giving us early realease! I was so happy! I almost flew out of the room when he said that we could go!

It’s because my class was supposed to end at four, but ending at four means that I will not be able to go and see the festia which ends at 5 due to the fact that I need bout 1 hr to get there. But when our teacher realeased us, I was like flying in the sky!

I know that’s it’s werid that I’m so happy. But you don’t understand because I was going there to meet my friend that I haven’t seen in quite some time! I was so happy!

It’ been such a long time since I had actually written something bout my life. Lol…expect for the one below. I found it when I was going through some old diskettes (I know, I know…diskettes are like damn old fashion but I was throwing them away right?!) I wrote that when I was going through a really bad relationship. Although both of us are no more now, I still feel a pang of sadness. Sighxx…

I recently got accepted into Nanyang Polytechnic’s course, Information Technology. If you knew me before I got into poly, you would have known that I actually wanted to go to Ngee Ann Polytechic’s Mass Communication. However, due to my L1R4 being 20, which was too high for Mass Comm’s 12, I got into NYP. Still,  I really have to thank God for this arrangement. As I think most Christians, or even people know, God like to work in mysterious ways. He takes away somethings but he gives more in return.(Although I’m not sure if he did give more this time round but hey, who am I to question God?) Being in NYP has made me realize that God does indeed have given me things in return. For e.g. I always hoped that i do not meet anyone from my school in my class, not because I don’t like them, but because I do not want rumors that were previously there coming to where I’m. Lo and Behold! I do not have people whom are from my school in my class! (Though they are in the same course…but whatever.)

In class, I met really nice people who I really like! But still, as usual, I could get along better with the guys than the gals. Sighx…my mother always tell me that better not get to close with the guys incase the gals hate you. (For those who are wondering why in the world would gals get jealous, the reason is because if you are the one that all guys talk to and have all their attention on, some gals will get jealous cause the guys wont talk to them much right?) However, I have learnt my lesson. Even if I will cause the gals to hate me!!! I still have to talk to the guys! Because I don’t really get along with gals much, and if I don’t mix with the guys, I won’t have friends! Lol…it’s the sad but true truth.(Eh…that sounds werid…)

Lol…stopping here now…got to go sleep! Write more next time!

Sometimes, I just dont know what to think…Do u love me? Or are you just playing around with me? Tell me the truth please…cuz I’m tired of being treated like this…treated like I don’t exist! When I’m supposed to be someone important to you! Is this how your supposed to treat me? Tell me please! Don’t stand there like there’s nothing going on! What am i supposed to think?  Am I supposed to believe what you actually say? My friends tell me that if I’m, I’m the most idoitic and stupid person in this world…Why? Because of what you are doing! Your like a poison…slowing killing me with each action and each word…you say that your afraid of being hurt because you have been hurt before. But what you’re doing now is worse! If you know that it hurts, then don’t do it to the person who is supposed to have a special place in your heart! What do you expect me to think? You never call, never messaged, never showed any signs of even knowing that I’m there! You once said that i was your shelter when things go bad…but what about when things are good? This shelter don’t get to see you when you’re happy! I thought, and know that a relationship is between two people who not only love and trust each other…but the other is also there to share all your troubles and happiness…but you only share your troubles! Never your happiness! Why? What am I to you excactly? Tell me…please…