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Aww…I have like so much work it’s killing me~!!! Lol…I’m like so daed…I’m taking 7 modules, and i think I’m preparing to fail four…sighxx…

Am supposed to be doing my work rite now but sitting here with a backache and a impending headache…sighx…save me~ from this place~!!! Lol…

Sighxx…if i wanna pass my modules i would either have too

1. Work so hard until i faint then teachers will pity me and then extemp me from exams!!!(Yea RITE…)

2. Find teachers to help me out and ask them EVERYTHING! (Worse, some of my teachers are like scared of me for I dnt know what reason…)

3. Find classmates to help me out! (Rite…sighxx..with the way i have been calling them in classes, i doubt they want to see me OUT of the class…)

4. Find friends to help out! (Sighx…they don’t even study the same things as me and even if they did, they are they ones asking me for help not the other way round…)

sighx…what am i supposed to do?! sighx…i’m like taking c math and there are a math chapters there so i got one of my friends who took a math before to help out…bu tthe others..sighxx…i guess it’s up to my self then…GO GO GO~!

God does work in mysterious ways. I was in school today and then I had to go to Ngee Ann Polytechic after school to go for their CCA feastia. It’s because that NYP don’t have it’s own CF(Christian Fellowship) yet, so NP and NYP’s CF are like together.

So I was in class when my lecturer told us that he’s giving us early realease! I was so happy! I almost flew out of the room when he said that we could go!

It’s because my class was supposed to end at four, but ending at four means that I will not be able to go and see the festia which ends at 5 due to the fact that I need bout 1 hr to get there. But when our teacher realeased us, I was like flying in the sky!

I know that’s it’s werid that I’m so happy. But you don’t understand because I was going there to meet my friend that I haven’t seen in quite some time! I was so happy!

It’ been such a long time since I had actually written something bout my life. Lol…expect for the one below. I found it when I was going through some old diskettes (I know, I know…diskettes are like damn old fashion but I was throwing them away right?!) I wrote that when I was going through a really bad relationship. Although both of us are no more now, I still feel a pang of sadness. Sighxx…

I recently got accepted into Nanyang Polytechnic’s course, Information Technology. If you knew me before I got into poly, you would have known that I actually wanted to go to Ngee Ann Polytechic’s Mass Communication. However, due to my L1R4 being 20, which was too high for Mass Comm’s 12, I got into NYP. Still,  I really have to thank God for this arrangement. As I think most Christians, or even people know, God like to work in mysterious ways. He takes away somethings but he gives more in return.(Although I’m not sure if he did give more this time round but hey, who am I to question God?) Being in NYP has made me realize that God does indeed have given me things in return. For e.g. I always hoped that i do not meet anyone from my school in my class, not because I don’t like them, but because I do not want rumors that were previously there coming to where I’m. Lo and Behold! I do not have people whom are from my school in my class! (Though they are in the same course…but whatever.)

In class, I met really nice people who I really like! But still, as usual, I could get along better with the guys than the gals. Sighx…my mother always tell me that better not get to close with the guys incase the gals hate you. (For those who are wondering why in the world would gals get jealous, the reason is because if you are the one that all guys talk to and have all their attention on, some gals will get jealous cause the guys wont talk to them much right?) However, I have learnt my lesson. Even if I will cause the gals to hate me!!! I still have to talk to the guys! Because I don’t really get along with gals much, and if I don’t mix with the guys, I won’t have friends! Lol…it’s the sad but true truth.(Eh…that sounds werid…)

Lol…stopping here now…got to go sleep! Write more next time!

Sometimes, I just dont know what to think…Do u love me? Or are you just playing around with me? Tell me the truth please…cuz I’m tired of being treated like this…treated like I don’t exist! When I’m supposed to be someone important to you! Is this how your supposed to treat me? Tell me please! Don’t stand there like there’s nothing going on! What am i supposed to think?  Am I supposed to believe what you actually say? My friends tell me that if I’m, I’m the most idoitic and stupid person in this world…Why? Because of what you are doing! Your like a poison…slowing killing me with each action and each word…you say that your afraid of being hurt because you have been hurt before. But what you’re doing now is worse! If you know that it hurts, then don’t do it to the person who is supposed to have a special place in your heart! What do you expect me to think? You never call, never messaged, never showed any signs of even knowing that I’m there! You once said that i was your shelter when things go bad…but what about when things are good? This shelter don’t get to see you when you’re happy! I thought, and know that a relationship is between two people who not only love and trust each other…but the other is also there to share all your troubles and happiness…but you only share your troubles! Never your happiness! Why? What am I to you excactly? Tell me…please…

Yippie!!! The june holidays are here!!!but i also damn suay one…shedule damn tight…

31(may) : Maths Class, St John Duty

1(june) : Maths Class

4(june) : parent teacher meeting

9(june) :St John Duty

11(june) :Birhtday Party!!! Hahax…

14(june) :St John Duty

16(june) : St John Camp

17(june) : St John Camp

18(june) : St John Camp

22(june) : Doctor Appoinment

23(june) : My Birthday!!! Watashiwa Birthditto

24(june) : St John Duty

Haiz…die liao lah…so much things…one word…Suay lor…actually, that was two words…watever

p.s. church guys…listen up…those dates that never appear here means i free…see when u guys also free then find time to do project together…lets work together to do this project!!!

sitting in front of the libarey com don’t know wat to do…mother’s day also never go home be wit mother…but i so damn bored at home…nthing to do…go home also study bio and chem only wat…study for six hours yesterday liao…damn tired…but got get my mother prezzie lah…don’t tell u wat it is…tell u also no use…u also not my mother…break liao…quite sad…that day break then i cry…then my mother also suddenly come home…so i lied and said that my frend fracture the leg and not fainted at hospital…then two days later he told me he got new laopo liao then i started crying again…then mother come out and see wat happen…then i told her that my frend condition worse…a few more days later…we got back together and i was very happy…my mother ask me wat happen and i said the frend woke up liao…on the way to recovery…but we broke up again lah…actually…saying all this is not to let u guys know that i broke up liao…but to le u guys see that my mother has been there for me whether im happy or sad…i just wanted to bring out the love my mom has for me…this storey shows that my mother like all others love me deep in her heart and never want to see me cry…they would always want us to be happy and smile everyday…hope that those who read this will cherish and love their mothers even more…happy mother’s day…

bored down here…don’t know wat to do…juz sitting down here crapping bout how bad my life is…hahax…but i passed my chem retest and failed my bio retest…haiz…feeling down this week cuz of some bgr problems…haiz…don’t know wat to do…juz dead bored…signing off…

i got 44/50 for my chinese test!!!!…hahax…1st in class…so happy…so bored now…at library wit kaiyun now…i also got 22/25 for my chem test!!!!!!…but some one tell teacher ppl in class copy…so teacher want a retest!!!!…so unlucky…but daryl even more unlucky…he got 24.5/25!!!!…just half more mark and he have to retest now…haiz…so poor thing…then teacher not fang xin and he scared that we also cheat in bio test and then we have to retest!!! Arghhh… so bad luck…so angry…haiz…but also no choice…but study until like siao then get high mark…then say want retest…haiz…but nm lah…hahax…go home tell mummy that i get 1st for chinese liao…byez!!!!!